music and words


June 2015



I share your toothbrush now,
not that you’d know.
Sometimes I dream I’ve seen you up close.
Staring in your eyes.
Seeing your smile,
the crease at the side of your mouth,
like when you were younger.
I imagine.
I doubt you’d ever want to meet me –
I spend too much time online and I know you don’t like that.
oh, when they told you, I was there you know.
They saw me as they left and tried to get back in.
Will you ever let me leave?
I’ve got nothing to lose now, apart from you.
Will you ever let me leave?
I’ve been trapped too long, I wish I could let you go.



The road is loud tonight.
Cars riding past don’t know their name,
I lost my way one time and called for help.
They never knew it was them I called for.
The road outside is loud tonight.
I wish it would stop and let me sleep,
how many times have I sat awake?

I wish I knew when I was younger

I don’t like thinking too much about what I used to be like in a negative way, I like to think of it as a necessary step to becoming the person I am now. There are a few things I wish I knew when I was younger that would have made me feel a bit better, at least I imagine they would have.

1 – It gets better!

Despite the fact that all through secondary school I was told by my teachers, ‘these are the greatest days of your life’ I now know they were lying! It really does only get good once you’re older, don’t worry about how you look or what people think of you, as soon as you leave and go into the real world you can make so many different friends who are way more interesting than the few hundred people that happened to live near you. Whether it’s university or travelling that gets you into contact with new people, you’ll find that you’re a lot more interesting than you thought.

2 – Don’t plan too much

Some people always knew what they wanted to do and they grow up taking steps to live out their master plan, well these people either don’t exist, or they’re weird. Nobody wants to be one of these people! Just take life as it comes, if there’s something you want to do, start doing it, don’t be freaked out if a year later you’re not so interested in it any more – there’s always another option. It’s fine to not know what you want to be doing in 5 years time or even in 1 week, it’s more exciting that way.

3 – Your taste in music will change

You’ll look back at what you used to love and realise it was pretty mediocre, but it’s all a process. You’ll find you’re less reliant on what people say is good and you start to develop your own taste in what you like. It’s really liberating, don’t be ashamed of the fact that you thought that some corny rapper was the most fire mc alive, it’s a good way to learn what you love.

4 – Say yes

Don’t be afraid to just say yes, if someone offers you something its because they want you to have it, not because they’re just being polite. This might be a particularly British trait, we love to say no when it’s in our interest, don’t be afraid of the unknown. This applies to travelling as well, if someone wants someone to go with them and they invite you, save up what you can and get out there into the world, who doesn’t want to be friends with a yes person!

5 – Be brave

There comes a point as you get older that you realise that you’re going to die and the infinite universe will just go on without you. There’s a couple of ways you can deal with this:

– You get freaked out, hide from the reality and live like you’re never going to die just working away trying to earn enough money to pay your mortgage


– you get freaked out, you realise it’s best to spend the short amount of time you have on Earth doing as many things you love as possible. If you don’t think you love a lot of stuff, go out and find things you like doing!

6 – Smile

Whether people are mean or nice to you, it’s always good to smile back, people can’t work it out and it makes you remember how petty some things are.

7 – You can be sad

Considering the last point, don’t hide from you feelings. If you’re sad then, be sad! There’s nothing to be ashamed of and your friends should understand and be able to help you through it (if they don’t then chuck them!) The less you cage your emotions up the easier they become to deal with.


This list can be different for everyone and not every point will be good for you, but if you’re reading this and thinking that life sucks then you’re right, it does – it all depends on your perspective, if life sucks then try to change it because there are so many things to see and do out there, so stop reading this and get going!

Supermarkets Suck

Sometimes you take a minute to think about how absurd the things we do really are and I’ve been thinking about this with Supermarkets.

The damage they’ve done to our communities is so devastating it’s hard to believe it’s happened over such a short space of time. Take a minute to think about how weird it is, as you walk into a supermarket you’re forced to walk past a man standing staring at a screen, it’s a screen that shows him live video footage of everywhere in the store – or at least that’s what I assume it shows, I’d like to think he’d just binge watching 24 but I doubt this is the case. So as you’re reminded that they’re watching you and you take those steps into the store, that’s it, you’re trapped. If you want to get out without looking like a thief then you’d better get buying something! Who wouldn’t want to buy something from them, they have everything right?

Think about how little connection we have with the companies we give our hard earned money to, that they have to watch our every move as we walk around their sterile demon hell womb! Our communities have been killed by their giant stores and they have upped their security to prevent us from ever taking some of the power back into our hands. Surely if we really loved our shopping experience and appreciated the great savings we’ve been blessed with then there would be no need to steal from them?

As you walk past the food bank donation box they present at the front of the store it’s like they’re laughing in our faces, don’t they realise it’s partly their fault no one can afford to buy food for their families any more? Why communities don’t exist to help people that need it. Just drop some food off in a box at the front and everything will be ok! “Yeah sure, thanks giant corporation man, we’ll do that, make sure you search my gran next time she leaves the shop, she’s been moaning she can’t afford to heat her house recently, she’ll probably be knicking soon!”

I know it’s not easy to stop using supermarkets but we can start challenging the way they treat us and questioning their actions. Don’t let them treat you like the thief when what they’ve stolen from us is a lot more valuable than a couple of razors!

5 Lyrical Tracks

I’ve made a little list of 5 of the best tracks for word lovers.

This National Track is raw and insecure, it’s the type of sound that made me fall in love with their music in the first place. Baby, We’ll Be Fine is a ‘will anyone ever love me’ kind of sad Sunday afternoon song (if that’s even a thing) but it gets me every time!

Sufjan Stevens makes amazing music, with so many beautiful lyrical tracks alongside more experimental ventures makes him a really exciting artist to follow. His latest album was pretty much a lyrical feast and this track, that describes the day his estranged mother died, is so so good!

The Smiths.
That’s I should have to say but to be precise, Morrisey’s lyrics have it all, they can be gloomy & sad, funny, desperate, ridiculous or all those at the same time. It can be quite intense listening to too much of The Smiths but it’s always worth it. Good lyrics mean good music for years to come and this is the case with The Smiths.

I found out about tobias jess jr recently and this was the track that got me started, this song gives me the music shivers and makes the hair on the back of my neck stand up. Enjoy!

Jean Grae is the shit. She’s done so much and is constantly developing her style. She’s an inspiration for anyone that thinks there shouldn’t be limits on what you can do with your life. I could really put any Jean Grae track up on this list. If there’s 1 artist I could recommend you listen to more, it’s Jean. Listen to this track and try and get a hold of the lyrics, then go to the Rap Genius page and prepare to have your mind blown.

You don’t like this list, so what, I don’t care!! MOTHERFUCKERRRRR!!!!!




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